an abundant life

Developing The Change Project business and website has been a big undertaking. I've loved it and found it energising and inspiring in so many ways but in recent weeks, I've also found myself somewhat depleted. Like most projects, it went over budget and it has taken considerably more time than I had anticipated. And it has taken my attention away from Total Balance (as I knew it would). Which of course, has had its implications.

I don't doubt for a single second that it was the right decision but I've noticed that in the last week or so I've been focusing more on 'lack' than 'abundance'.

I try to be very conscious of the energy I bring to my work (and to my family) so it has concerned me to find myself feeling a bit drained. I'm lucky to have beautiful support people around me (my friend Lindy has been a particularly good listener lately) and my meditation and exercise help keep me sane.

But still, I hadn't been able to shake this niggling sense of anxiety.

Then last night something shifted.

With some reticence, I was having guests for dinner. I love cooking and entertaining, but it was a week night and I'm up against a tough deadline so I was feeling stretched for time (and as you will have gathered, lacking in energy).

The girls and Elsa's boyfriend, Toby were free to join us so there were seven of us in total. Sharing a simple meal and a bottle of wine with the people I love completely lifted my spirits. I realised afterwards, that I've been looking at things all the wrong way. I just need to reconnect with the sense of abundance in my life. There are so many things to be grateful for.

This morning, by pure coincidence, Robert Rabbin's latest blog post The Money Mirror arrived in my inbox. What a timely and generous reminder of how important it is to be aware of the choices we make every day and where we focus our energy.

Mine has suddenly shifted and today, everything seems brighter.